
I have said mulitple times to my kids this summer, "you guys just need to go to school!" Of course it is during the teasing, fighting, mess making, & whining times this phrase has just flown out of my mouth. The last couple of days, I have been thinking about my kids starting up their new educational years, Baylie in 6th grade, Ben in 3rd and my baby Nolan starting a full day of kindergarten! It really hit me tonight at dinner when we were all sitting around talking... it is really here... the first day of school is tomorrow. Baylie mentioned that she is wearing all black today because she is in mourning. I mentioned that I am going to wear all black too because I too am mourning. Baylie quickly responded, "what are you mourning?" in her usual sarcastic tone. Christian decides to chirp in..."Mom's whole life changes tomorrow. Her whole life has been dedicated to taking care of you kids and now that is over!" My first reaction was to throw my dinner roll across the table and hit him in the mouth with it. Now, first of all I wouldn't go that far as to say my ENTIRE life is dedicated to kids, but the last 11 years has anyway. BIG difference...11 years vs. an entire lifetime. So, I just ate my roll and thought about how he is PARTIALLY right with tears running down my face.
As I was cleaning out a cabinet we use for all the pool towels and swim suits I came across a big, fat, black beetle...it was dead. Not only was it dead, but hollowed out from sitting so long. I sat and cried again. Not because my house needs to be cleaned but because I thought I had just cleaned that cabinet out...where has all the time gone? It seems like Nolan was just a baby. Reality has hit...it has been over 5 years. My kids are growing SO fast. I treasure every second I have with them.
With all three of my kids in school all day, I will have lots of time to wash the loads of laundry, dishes, make beds, and clean out the cabinets with dead hollow beetles in them...maybe that's why I am so sad. That will surely make anyone cry!